about my friends

"I've friends that don't know how much I consider them as friends and don't understand the love I devote to them and my absolute need of them.

Friendship is a more noble feeling than love, allows division of affections, while love carries jeaulousy and cannot consider more than one person. I could bare , even though not without pain, that all my loves would die, but I would go crazy if all my friends would die. Even the ones not understanding how much I consider them as friends. and how much my life depends on their existence...

Some of them I don't meet, it's enough for me to know they exist. This mere condition gives me strenght to follow my life. But, because I don't try to meet them frequently, I cannot tell them how much I care for them. They wouldn't believe. Many of them are reading these words and don't know that they are included in a sacred relation as my friends. But it's delicious for me to know and feel I adore them. Even though I don't say it or try to meet them.
And sometimes, when I look for them, I notice they don't hAve the slightest idea of how much I need them, how much they are part of my life balance, because they are part of the world I trembly built and became the foundations of my enchantment for life. If one of them dies, I'll be one eyed. If they would all die, I would crash! That's why, they don't know but I pray for their lives. And I feel ashame because this pray is directed to my well being. It's maybe even selffish. Sometimes, I dive in thoughts about some of them. When I travel and I stay in beautiful places, I feel sad because they are not with me sharing that pleasure... It worries me and makes me feel older that the furious wheel of life doesn't allow me to have always by myside, living with me, walking with me, talking to me, living with me, all my friends, mainly the ones who only suspect or maybe will never know that they are my friends!

We don't make friends, we recognize them. " (Vinicius de Moraes- Brazillian song writer)